Yesterday was my mom’s birthday, and also the third year, now, that my family and I have celebrated the day without her. Talking to Carolyn today, I realized that so much of the person I am today is because of her. I speak my mind like she used to. I don’t take people’s crap (anymore) just like she never did, and I’d say, I’m just as irreverent as she was, we basically dgaf about what people think about us. But more than that, she taught me so much in the 19 years I spent with her. She taught me to take initiative when it came to boys, school, and life. When I was in high school, she wouldn’t let me go home until I asked my crush to homecoming… yah she was that cool. She taught me that life’s too short to take everything so seriously. I mean she was the one who used to pick me up from school early when we weren’t doing anything in class. And, the list goes on….
I guess it’s just days like yesterday, that make me think of her again and how much she’s affected my life and how grateful I am of all the time I spent with her, no matter how limited the time was. I really do miss her, but the difference now from before, is that I can accept what has happened and think back on the times we had together with happiness and graciousness, as opposed to regret and sadness. I just hope that she is and would be proud of the person I am today and how I have grown. So, Happy Birthday Mommy! I miss you and I love you and thank you for everything you’ve taught me. <3